a trip within.

You have to find a BALANCE
between vulnerability and comfort,
do you see?
Someone who won't take advantage of you when your weak
and someone who promotes your strength all the time when you're rising to the stars.
Someone who will tell you how beautiful you are when you're at your absolute worse
and mean it.
Someone who will not hesitate to cut you down and criticize you when you're being too cocky.
Someone who is level and keeps you leveled
but has their moments when they need you to turn around and level them.

We're all human.
We need to treat and be treated.

Our electricity holds me in captivity;
this connection is gradual expansion.
Accept loss and walk across
a valley of doubt
to a deity who knows what love is all about.

ashes.

The world is just a place

we're destined to try to escape.

I took Love's hand,
trusted it as it became my own,
but you feared the unknown,
turned back,
and tried to learn how to let me be
while you search for whatever
your mind dreams is free.

Good-byes are never good-bye,
no matter how hard you try.
Saying forever,
for us,
will never be a lie.

Conspire a fire;
A warmth that never leaves as it
dives into consistency.
Doesn't the thought lift you
higher
and
higher?

I want to roll around in rhymes
and lead you into my mind
where my heart is waiting out time.

Your words
in me
keep breaking free
and
creating a natural masterpiece.
LoVe is this permanent song I'm living
as your eyes keep giving and giving.

not done. no time. & homework =/

Brown eyed baby
come and greet me.
Your life reciprocates into mine
as both our eyes open wide and shine.

Your eyes, such a bouncing brown
spins my world timelessly around.
In every attempt to find your voice
I feel the hearts within us rejoice.

Communication.
No hesitation.
Together, we limit limitation.

I see the tapestry of sincerity all ready on your face.
In every emotion, you appeal with all of your devotion.

inexplicable

I can't always rise above it.

Sometimes I want to let this world 

cover my head,

absorb my tears, 

pull me under;

under and out of the daily distresses.

"I thought this life was a blessing."

Not when it's just constantly messed with.

judging you?

is only judging me.

Did you think I gave these judgments out for free?

I just see you evaporating the loss you've faced

into a lover's eyes misplaced.

Temptation is rarely worth the gain.

why not?

why do you still dress to impress?
absorbing other people's thoughts
and hosting them as your own.
God, I really wanted to believe that you had grown,
that the art you make represents your beauty when you're alone.
But you can't even break free of your own confined mentality.
Sneak a peek,
steal some dreams,
represent yourself in individuality
when you have anything but originality.

Stuck in an infantile state

of confusing lust and hate;

mistake a fusion of bodies

for the love you think he's hiding.

imagery conspiracy

Any remedy you find,
well, they seem to all keep you locked up inside.
They all just feed your flickering flames,

push, push so far away
but all our words keep on echoing
"oh, please stay."

You happen to come back
just in time,
to once again,
tug me in,

tonight
let's pull LoVe OUT OF Sin,
purity comes back to tuck us in.

These remedies,
they'll just leave you insane
if you can not learn
to just live inside your own brain.

Let's not waste our emotions on such meaningless verbage.

When it comes to proposals, to promises,
I only trust the ones that match your actions.

We shape our reality with our mentality.

wide eyes.

It's funny the people that say
they're the most "inspired"
only can find inspiration from
sensual, materialistic, drugged out experiences.

It's not inspiration when your consistently missing.
The point.

The beauty?
It's everywhere.
I look into your wide wondrous eyes,
your blank, INVITING stare
and I have found that LIFE IS GORGEOUS EVERYWHERE,

THE WORLD?
its GORGEOUS.
THE PEOPLE?
some are.
all the others?
oh they could be gorgeous if they didn't let their appetites eat them alive.

without sex, without drugs,
without waging wars on one another.
Life would be the wonder it should be.
you would understand what it means to
ACCEPT,
APPRECIATE,
BUILD YOURSELF UP
AND BE.
THEN GIVE WHAT YOU CAN OUTWARD,
THIS WORLD COULD BE ANEW.

A place where we would not have to fear for the things children's minds will eventually find.
I love to have you in my care
and
now I see the inspiration EVERYWHERE.

Nature vs. Nurture

I dare you to dig into the depths of my mind,

stare into my soul

and

show the world what you find.

Around my heart,

you'll find my art;

a place to build beginnings

or to hit re-start.

One day,

 you four will see that

You're just like me,

pretty baby.

Your a child

but 

you'll never be granted a childhood.

And I am so sorry that is true.

As you twirl in your day dress

I just look at you

and

 your eyes explode into my head.

Oh your eyes,

they reflect the utter innocence of your mind.

How I am completely mesmerized

when you look into mine.

They are so wide,

full of untouched time.

I want to wash this world clean

before it's seen.

Before it's seen

by those curious, colorful eyes.

I want to wash this world clean

so it can never try to make you cry.

I want to steal you away

and show you beautiful teachings.

Beautiful days

that make the sun stay vivid 

even when it retreats away.

I want to give you

CONSTANCY,

CONSISTENCY

before this world pushes you into vulnerability.

I'll never abandon you because 

I know what you need.

I want to show you when

to hold on

and when

to hold back.

And that no problem is ever solved with the solution of attack.

I hope when you're ready to hear these things

my heart, my head, and my soul are running on the right track.

I need to fill your heart with purity

and convince you that is the way to be.

Honesty is the only way to see

even if others don't agree

and try to hurt you aimlessly.

Other people only have power over you if you let them;

this I guarantee.

higher hoop. higher hope.

I feel;

SEE the Earth gyrate beneath me.

I don't need anyone who does not need me.

The concentric circles,

oh they make love beneath me;

start out solo,

overlap,

and then they completely absorb 

and 

JUST BE.

I am their center;

they have no other need but me.

When I can, I enter

and then they exist as I twist.

I control their motion

but they've taken me to the ocean.

I slip inside a place

where there is no question

of devotion.

Such a peaceful, quiet evolution.

I can feel individuality 

completely taking over me

and I contemplate 

why I ever lost this state.

["Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, 

it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, 

but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails."
I Corinthians 13:4-8]*

Love does not ask us to change

but it has the power to exchange 

our past selves for a new, broader range.

*you should all ready know

but if you don't this quote came from the bible.

paulo coelho. By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept.

"Simply having the courage to say SENSELESS THINGS MADE ME EUPHORIC. I WAS FREE, WITH NO NEED TO SEEK OR TO GIVE EXPLANATIONS FOR WHAT I WAS DOING. This freedom lifted me to the heavens - WHERE A GREATER LOVE, ONE THAT FORGIVES EVERYTHING AND NEVER ALLOWS YOU TO FEEL ABANDONED, ONCE AGAIN ENVELOPED ME....
For YEARS, I had FOUGHT AGAINST MY HEART, BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID OF SADNESS, SUFFERING, and ABANDONMENT. BUT NOW I KNEW THAT TRUE LOVE WAS ABOVE ALL THAT AND THAT IT WOULD BE BETTER TO DIE THAN TO FAIL TO LOVE...

even if loving meant leaving, or solitude, or sorrow, LOVE WAS WORTH EVERY PENNY OF ITS PRICE."


read this book. that's all I can tell you.