Mark Khoury, you were by far one of the nicest individuals I have ever had the pleasure of being friends with. I refuse to say good-bye because you will always live on in everyone's heart that you have ever met. We won't say good-bye; it's only a farewell until we meet again. When you live a life of love; your legacy becomes love and that legacy lives on, for all time, and is NEVER defeated. When you love someone, you never lose them and you were surrounded by many souls that loved you so you will never be lost; you forever live on in our hearts and memories. Love is not limited to the physical world; love is accessible in every realm and travels through the barriers of time and physicality. You are energy, Mark, and you will never be destroyed; though your physical presence has left momentarily, you will forever be FELT.
I feel like we didn't take advantage of our friendship while we had the time and for that I will forever be sorry for the memories that never got made. After high school, we lost touch for about a year until I saw you at Kevin's again but still we conversed like no time had passed at all and I remember how you made me smile. Watch over Kevin the best you can, please. You meant the world to him and he means the world to me; he needs your guidance to get through this. Show him he has to live for not only himself now, but for you also.
Still, even though we lost touch, I can still vividly remember our best moments together -
I remember when we dated. I was a sophomore, I believe, and you were a junior. It didn't last too long, though, and I remember exactly why. After a month or so you found out I smoked weed and, in the hallway, you broke up with me. Within two months time, though, you called me and invited me to your house. You asked me if I wanted to blaze. I remember walking down to your house and we proceeded to smoke out of an apple until I got frustrated with the idea and said we should just go to my house and get a pipe. I love this memory so much. You are the only one I ever smoked out of an apple with. I think I'll leave it that way for the rest of my life.
I remember the first DAY you got your license; the FIRST time you were allowed to drive alone. You took me on a date and, come to think of it, it may have been the first ACTUAL date I had ever been taken on. I remember how worried your mom was and how mine was so nonchalant and just didn't care or worry about anything. But not yours. She requested you call her at every stopping point; even when you got to my house which was literally TWO minutes from yours. We laughed about it the whole time but when the movie was done (and it's only logical that I don't even remember the film haha) we tried to drag the time out. I think we told her the movie was longer than it actually was and hung out by the Appalachian trails between our two houses. :)
I remember those Appalachian trails with you, too. One time, I remember us sneaking out and meeting up on the trails and walking them in the pitch dark. I don't remember why we didn't do that more often...
I remember how sporty you were. Football, wrestling, baseball; did it ever end with you? ;) I remember watching your baseball games and hearing about you all the time over the intercom at school with all your sports. You were dedicated, Mark, and you were committed; you had passion. You were amazing and you helped carry our school to many victories; even with how shitty our football teams were =P. Your mom put your football jersey outside your house; I see it swinging in the wind every time I pass and it reminds me of every time you wore it at school on game days. You were so proud; you really loved your sports and I respect every inch of that. Have I told you how remarkable you were?
I remember your hot tub. Oh, your hot tub. Haha. I remember being in there with you, I think James, too, probably Kevin and possibly Jeremy. I remember we played an endless game of "Never Have I Ever" and I can still pretty distinctively hear the sound of your laughter; your belly deep laughter.
I think I remember going with you to your first moe. show ever. I have a feeling James was there, and maybe Jeremy, too. You know how moe.ments go, though, they're always a little foggy ;). I know I remember O.A.R. with you and I believe Kyle O. and maybe James, yet again. In fact, that is where that picture above was taken. I remember you guys looking out for me since a "boyfriend" who just randomly stopped talking to me was to be there. More importantly, though, I remember jamming out to one of our favorite songs, "Delicate Few". Damn, were we belting that song out. Now, whenever I "relax for a delicate few", I will surely think of you. :)
I remember your puppies!!!! Since your family bred them, you would always show me the newborns and they would fit in the palm of my hand, sometimes. I love this memory of you, too. You are the only person in the world to share the joy of newborn puppies with me. And I thank you.
I remember playing frisbee, for hours, in the Appalachian Trail parking lot with Kyle O. and James Drake.
I remember beeping every time I passed your house when you were outside for the past 5 years of my life.
I remember how completely random it was to find out your family was really good friends with Michelle Barclay's.
I remember our most recent trail walk with Kevin and Jeremy and all the old cop tales we had to tell each other. I remember planning Kev's 21st which didn't exactly go according to plan but was fun nonetheless with me having to play sober nurse/cop in Kev's new apartment. I remember you being really drunk, too. Haha I think I was the only sober person there and I spent most of the time in the bathroom anyway with an obliterated Kevin. I think you helped us put him to bed when the toilet stopped being his pillow..... Finally lol.
I remember the last time I saw you. We were at quick-chek. You asked me if I knew were any nugget was at. I said unfortunately not, I had no money, I just got a new car. You saw it, you liked it and you said "You would get a Mitsubishi." I didn't know what you meant by that comment and I still don't; I just wish I had asked you to go for a drive instead of rushing to wherever it was I was going...
I leave space for any more memories that might come; for the memories other people will remember about you with me. We're going to carry you with us now, Mark, so don't think the memories ever really end. You are monumental and your name does you justice because you surely have left your mark on this world. I regret not telling you enough how remarkable I think you are but we just grew apart when you graduated; we grew apart because I did something dumb once (even though I don't think you even remembered this) but I apologize. It was mostly my fault we stopped talking but I'm extremely grateful we repaired our friendship before this tragedy occurred. I love you, Mark, even if I didn't say it enough times when you were physically present to hear it. You surely have taught me to take full advantage of my friendships and to let each and every last person know how much they really mean to me.
I feel like we didn't take advantage of our friendship while we had the time and for that I will forever be sorry for the memories that never got made. After high school, we lost touch for about a year until I saw you at Kevin's again but still we conversed like no time had passed at all and I remember how you made me smile. Watch over Kevin the best you can, please. You meant the world to him and he means the world to me; he needs your guidance to get through this. Show him he has to live for not only himself now, but for you also.
Still, even though we lost touch, I can still vividly remember our best moments together -
I remember when we dated. I was a sophomore, I believe, and you were a junior. It didn't last too long, though, and I remember exactly why. After a month or so you found out I smoked weed and, in the hallway, you broke up with me. Within two months time, though, you called me and invited me to your house. You asked me if I wanted to blaze. I remember walking down to your house and we proceeded to smoke out of an apple until I got frustrated with the idea and said we should just go to my house and get a pipe. I love this memory so much. You are the only one I ever smoked out of an apple with. I think I'll leave it that way for the rest of my life.
I remember the first DAY you got your license; the FIRST time you were allowed to drive alone. You took me on a date and, come to think of it, it may have been the first ACTUAL date I had ever been taken on. I remember how worried your mom was and how mine was so nonchalant and just didn't care or worry about anything. But not yours. She requested you call her at every stopping point; even when you got to my house which was literally TWO minutes from yours. We laughed about it the whole time but when the movie was done (and it's only logical that I don't even remember the film haha) we tried to drag the time out. I think we told her the movie was longer than it actually was and hung out by the Appalachian trails between our two houses. :)
I remember those Appalachian trails with you, too. One time, I remember us sneaking out and meeting up on the trails and walking them in the pitch dark. I don't remember why we didn't do that more often...
I remember how sporty you were. Football, wrestling, baseball; did it ever end with you? ;) I remember watching your baseball games and hearing about you all the time over the intercom at school with all your sports. You were dedicated, Mark, and you were committed; you had passion. You were amazing and you helped carry our school to many victories; even with how shitty our football teams were =P. Your mom put your football jersey outside your house; I see it swinging in the wind every time I pass and it reminds me of every time you wore it at school on game days. You were so proud; you really loved your sports and I respect every inch of that. Have I told you how remarkable you were?
I remember your hot tub. Oh, your hot tub. Haha. I remember being in there with you, I think James, too, probably Kevin and possibly Jeremy. I remember we played an endless game of "Never Have I Ever" and I can still pretty distinctively hear the sound of your laughter; your belly deep laughter.
I think I remember going with you to your first moe. show ever. I have a feeling James was there, and maybe Jeremy, too. You know how moe.ments go, though, they're always a little foggy ;). I know I remember O.A.R. with you and I believe Kyle O. and maybe James, yet again. In fact, that is where that picture above was taken. I remember you guys looking out for me since a "boyfriend" who just randomly stopped talking to me was to be there. More importantly, though, I remember jamming out to one of our favorite songs, "Delicate Few". Damn, were we belting that song out. Now, whenever I "relax for a delicate few", I will surely think of you. :)
I remember your puppies!!!! Since your family bred them, you would always show me the newborns and they would fit in the palm of my hand, sometimes. I love this memory of you, too. You are the only person in the world to share the joy of newborn puppies with me. And I thank you.
I remember playing frisbee, for hours, in the Appalachian Trail parking lot with Kyle O. and James Drake.
I remember beeping every time I passed your house when you were outside for the past 5 years of my life.
I remember how completely random it was to find out your family was really good friends with Michelle Barclay's.
I remember our most recent trail walk with Kevin and Jeremy and all the old cop tales we had to tell each other. I remember planning Kev's 21st which didn't exactly go according to plan but was fun nonetheless with me having to play sober nurse/cop in Kev's new apartment. I remember you being really drunk, too. Haha I think I was the only sober person there and I spent most of the time in the bathroom anyway with an obliterated Kevin. I think you helped us put him to bed when the toilet stopped being his pillow..... Finally lol.
I remember the last time I saw you. We were at quick-chek. You asked me if I knew were any nugget was at. I said unfortunately not, I had no money, I just got a new car. You saw it, you liked it and you said "You would get a Mitsubishi." I didn't know what you meant by that comment and I still don't; I just wish I had asked you to go for a drive instead of rushing to wherever it was I was going...
I leave space for any more memories that might come; for the memories other people will remember about you with me. We're going to carry you with us now, Mark, so don't think the memories ever really end. You are monumental and your name does you justice because you surely have left your mark on this world. I regret not telling you enough how remarkable I think you are but we just grew apart when you graduated; we grew apart because I did something dumb once (even though I don't think you even remembered this) but I apologize. It was mostly my fault we stopped talking but I'm extremely grateful we repaired our friendship before this tragedy occurred. I love you, Mark, even if I didn't say it enough times when you were physically present to hear it. You surely have taught me to take full advantage of my friendships and to let each and every last person know how much they really mean to me.
I love you and may you rest in peace, my friend.
Mark, you are forever remembered and unconditionally treasured. ♥
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