Angled Armor

The words you had to say,

I was pushing you away?
Oh dear PLEASE remind me of the time
you actually asked to stay.

But I guess I see how easy it is to have sex
when you completely lack any depth.
You build yourselves up
like you have some deep, overflowing
knowledge of love
but
you reduce an act of commitment
down to an understatement.

And I'm sorry kid,
but someone should really tell you:
You don't control karma,
you're still just a child
who likes to provoke drama.
How come I know you have felt the power of love
but choose to let yourself lose out in a game of lust?

And tell me
Why have you forever chose to be in a competition with me?
Is it because
ALONE, WITH YOUR OWN MIND,
you still never learned how to just be??
you need attention to keep yourself going?

I hope one day
you
GROW OUT OF YOUR SELF-CENTERED TENDENCIES
ENOUGH TO SEE
that this life is only disturbing
when you start creating & manipulating your own reality.
QUIT EMBRACING UNEASY SITUATIONS
JUST SO YOU CAN GET YOUR LAUGHS
OUT OF YOUR OWN INDECISION.

By the way,
it's not jealousy baby,
there is no overwhelming green in me.
I just, still to this day,
HEAR the words he ALWAYS had to say:
"He never has had a love like me,
he'll never have another love like me."

And that is what absolutely kills me.

Because I know within him
is a man waiting to be free;
waiting to engage in life, laughter, love
and COMBINED SOUL ENERGY.
I can't comprehend how he looks in the mirror
and REFUSES TO SEE THE PERSON THAT HE CAN BE.
Afraid to be at peace.
Afraid to come near complete.
Please don't feel comfort in being incomplete;
pushing away the person you wish to be in eternity.

But, for now, he just wants to be a little boy.
And, as you are just a little girl,
take care of him.
(well as much as someone like you can)
Please leave behind what you like to think is "charm"
AND DON'T PUT ANY MORE SCARS INTO HIS HEART.

The two of you can play with love & lust like they are mere toys.
But one day,
both of you,
WILL HAVE TO GROW UP
(that is just time's way)
and you'll have to deal with the life you've been living
and the energy you have been giving.
I hope you can handle what you see.