-----Promises. It was your mission: to make sure I was not missing out on the way I should be treated. Somehow I lay my heart out to you and believe you; but I don't even know you. I can tell you I want to. How come I feel as if I want to get lost inside your mind? Realize that what we both want is the divine. How long before you let me inside? Will you believe me if I said I am ready to leave him behind?
-----Him. He is not ready but, without him, still, I am steady. Will he regret me? Only if he truly can not live without me. It's hard to confess that someone is not your ONLY when your afraid that admission might leave you lonely. I just think you should know that you're not really all I have to lose; I need to abandon the way I think of you. But I know the things he is capable of. He only needs to go to sleep to realize the dreams that he sees are from up above.
----I need you. Honestly, you're the only one I would have ever thought would stay true. I can't tell you how much I have to say to you (if only you could leave [her], be with me, and see). It's been so so long, way too long, since our eyes have met. I want you to know I've missed you on a daily basis. You were my hero, a brother, a survivor. The distance between us was always your biggest threat but you'll always be the BEST friend that I have ever met. There have been so many feelings we've both had to deny just so that we could both go on living our lives. I just have ONE QUESTION: WHY??...
****so far from finished. god, i've missed this...
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